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  • a new year’s message 2023

    a new year’s message 2023

    (click here for TLDR version if you’re drunk or have a TikTok attention span)

    Howdy losers 🥳

    Some of you might remember that last year, I wrote a New Year’s message.

    Well, I’ve decided to do it again. Learning from last year’s mistake of writing the message 2 hours before midnight, I’ve started early this year… 12 hours before. There’s nothing quite like a good deadline.

    If you’re new here… welcome! You’re now part of my club.

    The rules are as follows:

    1. Once you’re in the club, you will receive New Year’s messages from me forever until you explicitly notify me of your desire to not receive them anymore.
    2. I plan to write a New Year’s message every year from now on.

    If you’re reading this it means that you belong to one of the following groups:

    1. my close friends
    2. my casual friends and acquaintances
    3. random people I connected with at parties, events, traveling etc.
    4. people who received last year’s message who I might have fallen out of contact with

    This message is basically me saying, “Hi, I remember you, I like you, let’s hang out or do some projects together this year, here’s some thoughts that I would like to share with everyone.”

    As you probably know, my mum died on October 12 after fighting cancer for two and a half years. I want to share with you three lessons I learnt from that experience.

    1. You won’t truly appreciate your parents until they are gone. Spend time with them. Fix your relationship. Ask them things about your childhood. Apologise for things. Tell them your thoughts and feelings. Say everything you want to say and make things good before they leave.
    2. When talking to people who have lost somebody, there’s no need to be serious or avoid talking about it. It’s okay to mention the person in conversation, or to appear happy when around them. You don’t have to seem sad out of respect. This is my personal experience, but I’ve heard similar things from others who have lost someone.
    3. After watching the insights my mum had and the state of enlightenment she reached at the end of her life, I can also tell you that life is short, and if you want to do anything, you should fucking do it. Don’t put it off, don’t make excuses, don’t let fear stop you. Don’t take life too seriously. That’s what I learnt from my mum in the final weeks of her life.

    I hope this is of value to you.

    If you’ve read this far – thank you and well done. I know it takes a lot of effort nowadays to focus on anything that isn’t a 10-second video in vertical format.

    I wish you (yes you!) all the best for the coming year. May all your problems dissolve, your wishes come true, and your projects flourish!

    You might also like to:

    1. read last year’s message, which is just as relevant this year
    2. leave a comment below, or
    3. send me a snippet of text, anecdote or joke which I will include anonymously in next year’s message

    Happy New Year!
    Frohes Neues Jahr!
    Feliz Año Nuevo!
    Bonne année !
    Buon Anno!
    Feliz Ano Novo!
    Gelukkig Nieuwjaar!
    Szczesliwego Nowego Roku!
    Yeni Yılınız Kutlu Olsun!
    Athbhliain faoi mhaise duit!
    Gëzuar Vitin e Ri!
    С Новым годом!
    З новим роком!
    سنه جديده سعيده

    سال نو مبارک


    Hi loser!!!! I like you, let’s be friends and do projects together. I’m gonna send you these messages every year until you tell me to stop 😂😂😂😂 My mum died this year 😭😭😭😭😭😭 Appreciate your parents and tell them stuff, and if you wanna do something FUCKING DO IT🔥🔥 Don’t take life too seriously!!! Remember to DRINK LOTS OF WATER before bed 💦💦💦 Happy New Year WOOHOOOOO!!!!🎉🥳🥂

  • ai art

    ai art

    A collection of art which I generated using DALL-E.

  • abstraction


    A collection of abstract works.

  • photoshoot – mahsa

    photoshoot – mahsa

    Date: 16th September, 2022
    Location: Gendarmenmarkt, Berlin
    Model: Mahsa
    Camera: Canon 5D MKII

  • a new year’s message 2022

    a new year’s message 2022

    Hello! 🥳

    I wanted to message as many of you as possible personally, but I left it a bit late (it’s already 22:30 here).

    In what appears to be a common experience for everyone, I’ve also been quite bad at keeping up with your messages recently, many of them too detailed and lovely for a quick response. Even though we have lots of free time and are suffering from a chronic lack of social contact, we’ve all been shying away from people rather than reaching out, either digitally or in the analogue world. C****-19 seems to have intensified our contact with just a few core friends, while the rest have fallen by the wayside. Often despite our best intentions and our craving for contact, the thought of actually initiating fills us with dread.

    Often somebody occurs to us during the day, and we’d love to ask how they’re doing or even just send them a meme or a link we think they might like, only to see, to our horror, that we haven’t replied to their detailed and sometimes heartfelt message from weeks or months ago – oops! The guilt builds, the prospect of sending a proper reply fills us with anxiety, and a cycle of procrastination results. Somebody has put themselves on the line and opened up to us, and we didn’t even acknowledge them! Which is a shame… because often it’s people we actually like quite a lot but don’t talk to regularly that are the ones who are the most difficult to answer.

    There’s always the trick of messaging them via a different app of course, one on which we were the last one to message, but isn’t that just so silly? I’ve realised it’s more important to write something and keep the friendship going than to write the perfect message. Most of the time people don’t mind. They are just happy to hear from you. And anyway, if your message is too good, you can bet they’ll take ages to respond.

    Real life encounters used to wipe the slate clean and render the unanswered messages out of date. We could send a link or photo relevant to the analogue encounter and the thread would continue again quite naturally. But without this frequent and natural contact, conversations are left frozen in digital limbo. I’ve come to the conclusion that humans aren’t really designed for digital relationships. This all feels unnatural because it is.

    And if none of this makes sense to you, then you’re either a wonderful person and the perfect friend, or you’re a loser and you need to get more friends.

    Anyway, that rant was a bit longer than I intended. Basically, if you’re reading this, I want you to know that I care about you, and I want you to be happy. 🥰 You might be anything from someone I would trust with my life to an acquaintance or weekend travel buddy, but in any case, I frequently think about all of you, the funny things you said and did, the beautiful moments we shared, and the mark you have left on my life over the past few years. Many of you are a great source of inspiration to me!

    At first I thought sending a message to multiple people at once would be too impersonal, but then I realised it raised an interesting philosophical question: What would I write if I were writing to everyone? This is my attempt to answer that question, and if you’re reading this it means I made it to the end and decided to send it.

    Just a quick update. I’m moving into a new place in Berlin in February, where I plan to stay for the immediate foreseeable future, and I’d love to hang out with you there, so come visit! And if our paths don’t manage to cross this year, I welcome all of your messages, thoughts, ideas, worries, fears, photos, videos, voice notes, emojis, memes and links to fake news.

    The past 661 days have caused significant upheaval and hardship in all of our lives. But much like a forest fire, which destroys everything in its path, it also leaves plenty of space for new growth. The ashes of the lost leave the ground fertile for the new – new projects, new jobs, new cities, new friendships, new relationships, new ideas, new dreams.

    I sincerely wish you (yes you!) all the best for this coming year of regrowth. I hope to see as many of you as possible in 2022 and look forward to shared moments, ideas, experiences and adventures.

    Happy New Year!
    Frohes Neues Jahr!
    Feliz Año Nuevo!
    Bonne année !
    Buon Anno!
    Feliz Ano Novo!
    Gelukkig Nieuwjaar!
    Szczesliwego Nowego Roku!
    Yeni Yılınız Kutlu Olsun!

    Athbhliain faoi mhaise duit!
    Gëzuar Vitin e Ri!
    С Новым годом!
    З новим роком!
    سنه جديده سعيده

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  • a journey through time

    a journey through time

    Lightfast for 100 years. Failing some DNA-rejuvenating nanotechnology or interstellar round trip at lightspeed, the strip of photos would outlive us by several decades.

    “Imagine if, in 2121, one of our great grandchildren inherits an old box of our possessions and finds this photostrip inside. And their parents tell them, “this was your great grandfather, or grandmother, one hundred years ago in Berlin.”

    I heard a giant screech and a huge red train swept across the railway bridge over the street we were currently on.

    “I’ve always thought that would be weird. I mean, we’re living in the past right now, from their perspective at least. Imagine them in the future talking about us. Like, “I can’t believe people used to travel by train.” That kind of thing.

    Susana laughed. “How do you think people will get around a hundred years from now?”

    “I don’t know, flying cars I guess? It just seems crazy to think about this futuristic city seeming outdated and old. You know?”

    I tried to really visualise what it would be like looking back at this era. It was of course way beyond my comprehension.

    “Anyway, time to send ourselves to the future! Do you have two fifties?”

    Susana rummaged around her purse and dropped two fifties into my hand, joining the 2-euro coin that was already waiting patiently in my palm.

    “We need a concept,” I said, quoting the wisdom of one of my photographic accomplices the first time I set foot in a Photoautomat six lightyears ago. I wonder where those photos are now.

    “A concept?”

    “Yeah, you know, like… ‘happy, sad, surprised, angry’ or ‘awake, bored, yawning, asleep’. That kind of thing.”

    “I see! Well I have some accessories. This hair thing. Some sunglasses. What do you have?”

    “I have sunglasses too. And a mask obviously.”

    “Nooo… you can’t wear that. We don’t want people in the future being reminded of the pandemic.”

    “Hmm… good point. Hey, we could use my reading tablet.”

    I unlocked the screen and adjusted the font size to 99. Swiping through, I found a suitably cryptic phrase: MACHINE. HOW CAN ANYONE KNOW SUCH AN IDENTIFICATION?

    It didn’t really mean anything, but it fit the retrofuturistic aesthetic.

    “Ok, great! Let’s go in!”

    We crammed into the booth and set the worn metal stool spinning around and around, unsure after thirty turns whether it had adjusted the height or not. Whatever.

    Close the curtain. Coins in. Sit down. Adjust hair.


    “Fuck I wasn’t ready!”

    “Oh god, me neither—quick put the sunglasses on!!”

    I threw them onto my nose and even had a second to spare to touch the reading tablet in case it fell asleep mid-exposure.


    Hold up the tablet. Wait, shit – Susana has removed her sunglasses this time. I can’t have sunglasses on in two photos in a row. In a flash of improvisation, I slid them down my nose a few centimetres to create intrigue.


    “What’s our concept again?”

    “We forgot to come up with one!”

    Shock horror. Susana screamed. I placed my hands on her face from behind and screamed too. That ought to do it.


    Relief washed over us; our minute of stress was fixed in time forever. Already on its journey to 100 years in the future at the precise speed of one hour per hour. We pulled back the curtain, and light and air streamed into the booth. Now for the boring part. Long periods of boredom punctuated by moments of sheer terror. It was a famous quote about what it was like being in a World War One trench – one hundred years ago. It applied equally to this photographic experience, albeit to a much lesser degree.

    There was a small engraving beside the slot: Photo development in five minutes.

    Five minutes was a long time when you were waiting. I crouched down and made myself comfortable on a breeze block, taking in the tangle of bikes and Sunday passersby at eye level. It was getting to the part of the year where you could reasonably describe it as cold. All the leaves were orange, but whether it was autumn or already just winter was more a matter of semantics. The sun was just readying itself for its dramatic and disgustingly early disappearance after the clocks went back for daylight wasting time. It’s just the sun’s way of making sure we appreciate her in summer. She does it because she loves us, I tell myself every year.

    “Did we look at the time?”

    “Hmm… no. I think it’s been about two minutes so far,” I answered.

    “Time really crawls when you count every second,” noted Susana.

    “Hmm… yeah. It’s like being a child again.”

    “Exactly. Remember all those endless school days? A school year felt like an entire lifetime! It kinda makes sense though. I mean, imagine you’re seven. Another seven years brings you to fourteen. That represents a doubling of your lifetime. Whereas it would take over a quarter of a century to double our lives.”

    A quarter of a century. So a seven-year-old’s school experience from seven to fourteen seems like what twenty-five years seem like to me. Sounds about right, if a little terrifying.

    My gaze returned to the slot.

    “It’s definitely been five minutes. I hope it’s not broken.”

    “Well… there were some people here before us and their photos still haven’t appeared yet,” said Susana.

    “I’m sure they’ll be there any moment now,” I answered, trying to reassure myself more than her. “I was thinking the other day. You know when you’re on the right street but at the wrong house number? You have to walk in a big straight line along the street. Well, waiting is kind of like that, except instead of being in the wrong place in one of the spatial dimensions, you’ve got all the coordinates correct. It’s the time dimension that’s wrong. So the act of waiting is like moving in a straight line through time. Just like walking up a long street to get to the right number.”

    “Wow… That’s really cool! I’ve never thought of it like that before.”

    “If you want to meet up with someone in the world, both things have to be correct – space and time. Otherwise you’ll miss each other. Perhaps by metres, perhaps by minutes.”

    “Do you think the photos are in the wrong space or the wrong time?” Susana asked.

    “Hmm… good question!” I said, pressing my ear against the machine. There was a definite hum. “I’d say a bit of both. Although, the machine is definitely doing something.”

    “It might just be like, the background workings. The lights and stuff. Maybe it’s run out of paper. I can’t imagine they check them very often.”

    “Hmm yeah… maybe,” I said. “Hey look, there’s a service number here! Should I call it?”

    “Yeah, why not?”

    “Do you have German minutes?”


    “Ha. Me neither. Their plans are so expensive. Ok never mind, I’ll dial it anyway. Oh, one, six, five…” I dialed the number with very low expectations. “It’s Sunday at 17:00, though. I can’t imagine anyone’s just sitting there waiting for our call––Oh! It’s ringing!” The phone rang. I turned on the speakerphone.


    Oh, I thought. It must be the wrong number.

    “Err… Hi. We’re trying to use the photobooth on Holzmarktstraße. We’ve waited ages and the photos haven’t appeared. It’s eaten our money.”

    “Ah… sorry about that,” he replied.

    I could hear people talking and laughing in the background. Not a huge number of people – probably around four to seven. It sounded like a casual Sunday gathering in somebody’s flat.

    “I had a few people call earlier but then the calls stopped.”

    Ok, so that means the machine might be working intermittently. Still, surely this was a joke and the other guy was just going along with what I was saying. I mean, fair enough. What else are you going to do on a Sunday afternoon?

    “Listen, just email me your IBAN number and I’ll refund the money, okay?”

    No way, I thought. He’d really do that?

    “Wow! I mean… yeah… that would be great! Maybe you could put a sign up too so people know this one’s out of order? Or replace the film roll, or whatever.”

    “Yeah, I’ll do that too. Thanks for letting me know.”

    “No worries. Thanks for your help! Bye.” I hung up the phone, unsure whether to believe the brief exchange that had just taken place.

    I didn’t feel as bad about losing the coins now. At least we had a funny story, and there was now a real chance we would get the money back. We left the scene, finally accepting that our pictures had been lost forever. It didn’t really matter though; we are losing moments all the time. Every second is one you will never see again. But they get replaced by new moments almost immediately, so it’s okay in the end.

    Just as the experience had escaped our realm of immediate concern, something captured Susana’s attention while we were crossing the street.

    “There’s another Photoautomat over there!”

    Was this our lucky day, or merely another chapter of our misfortune?

    “Hmm look, the sample pictures on this one are different. The people are different,” she said. “Maybe one day our lost photos will appear on the other one.”

    “Maybe it’s even intentional,” I said. “Perhaps the machine holds back every hundredth strip. That might be where they get the sample images from. It would make them look more authentic. In fact they wouldn’t just look more authentic – they would actually be authentic.”

    “Ok, let’s do it. I’ll get the tablet ready again. Do you have any coins?”

    “I still have a few, yeah.”

    I sat down on the stool and looked at the instructions. “It takes tens, twenties… anything really.”


    Susana joined me and closed the curtain. This time we felt slightly more prepared. What’s more, we had a concept – recreating the lost photos. The inside of the booth was identical to the other one. That’s the thing about photo booths. You can never be quite sure where you will be when you open the curtain and return to the real world.

    We put the coins into the machine and immediately noticed a red digital display indicating how much we had put in. This was missing from the previous one, and gave us confidence that it would work this time.

    Ok. We wouldn’t be caught by surprise this time.

    Normal and serious.


    Sunglasses on.


    Hold up the tablet. Oh no! I’ve done it again. The sunglasses are still on. Better quickly slide them down my nose. Just like last time. Perfect.


    Now time for the scream. Hands over face. It was something like this I think?


    Thank god. All the poses were a fair simulacrum of the originals. Except for the first one of course: When the very first flash went off, we had no idea what position we were in due to our total lack of readiness.

    “Ok now start the timer!”

    I started the timer on my digital watch, checking back from time to time as it counted forwards in a straight line. This time, the five minutes went by quickly. Even waiting twenty minutes to get those pictures would have seemed like a good deal after being deprived of them the first time.

    A few groups of people passed us on the way out of the club area in front of which the photobooth was located.

    “You know, time travel is actually possible, but only forwards.”

    “Go on…”

    “Well, if you could travel in a spaceship at close to the speed of light, and you traveled five light years away from the Earth, and then five light years back, you’d be right back here again. For you, the trip would only take a few hours, but when you got back, it would be 2031. You wouldn’t even have to eat. Imagine that. You could be back here in ten years’ time, having not eaten the entire time, yet be totally healthy and not a day older. And it’s not even science fiction. It’s not even debated anymore in the scientific community.”

    “I can’t get my head around that.”

    “No one can,” I replied, “but we know that’s what happens.”

    Susana started unlocking her bike.

    “I’ll get my bike ready to save time,” she said.

    That’s a funny phrase, ‘save time’. What would happen to the saved time exactly. Where would it go?

    I looked at my watch as the final few seconds counted down.

    Six, five, four, three, two, one.

    Almost as if by magic, the strip of photos dropped down into the slot, dead on time.

    “Oh my god, it’s so punctual!” exclaimed Susana.

    It really was. It must be on a timer; there’s no way developing these photos just happens to take exactly five minutes.

    We looked at the photos.

    And they were magnificent.

    Worth every second of turmoil.

    “I’m reading this book at the moment. It talks about our emotional reaction to things:

    “We find a Photoautomat – excited.

    “It takes ages to develop the photos – impatient.

    “We find out it ate our money – angry.

    “We realise the photos are gone forever – disappointed.

    “We have a phone call with a stranger – amused.

    “He tells us the money can be refunded – relieved.

    “We find another one – hopeful.

    “It works this time – grateful.”

    “Exactly. It’s kind of ridiculous, isn’t it? We actually have more to show for our efforts than we would have had, had it worked properly the first time.”

    “Indeed. You can never tell whether something is truly good or bad until you have all the information. Sometimes the reference frame changes. You might miss a train and meet the love of your life, or leave something behind and have to go back for it, only to narrowly avoid getting hit by a bus. So we shouldn’t take those moments too seriously. There is no such thing as loss. It’s just a story we tell ourselves.”

    When I got home, I wrote an email to the stranger on the phone:

    Dear Photoautomat Guy,

    We spoke earlier on the phone when the Photoautomat on Holzmarktstraße gobbled our money. I would be most grateful to receive the promised refund. We later found the booth around the corner and the photos turned out superrrr.


    Black and white regards,


    Five minutes later, my phone pinged, and almost as if by magic, the three euros dropped into my account.

  • vegetables


    This is a poem about vegetables I wrote spontaneously in order to make a friend laugh. It actually turned out better than expected, so here it is.

    O faithful onion, my allium friend,
    Layers of perfection and heart so tend.

    My tapered root and orange so stark,
    Eaten daily, you reveal us the dark.

    O starch of the earth, how could we forget,
    Your knobbled skin and flesh perfect,

    Boiled, mashed, roasted or fried,
    In every form, our hearts confide.

    Mon petit pois, how I adore thee,
    Frozen or fresh, the humble pea.

    And broccoli, broccoli, how are you so green?
    Broccoli, broccoli, the fractal of my dream.

  • aliens


    A photographic study of extraterrestrial fungusoids found on planet Earth in October 2020.

    Dedicated to my friend Susana.

    If anyone knows the names of any of them, please let me know.

    This intergalactic tentacle embryo is an octopus stinkhorn (Clathrus archeri), also known as devil’s fingers. At the base was a putrid egg full of clear slime. You can watch a video of one hatching here. It is truly the stuff of nightmares.

  • concrete & cellulose

    concrete & cellulose

    A photography project from 2015.

    Concrete and cellulose describes nature’s confrontation with a man-made environment. An environment for which nature has no plan. It is a plant pressing against glass. It is a tendril grasping at steel. It is a tree growing from a crevice in a wall. A root cracking a paving slab.

    After millions of years, mankind is nature’s first true opponent. We manipulate physics and chemistry, enslaving its laws to effect our own will. Steel, glass and concrete collide to trounce nature, shaping our ideal urban environment. Maximising space and silencing the natural order.

    Plants are too unpredictable for our perfect world. We suffocate all traces of unwanted verdure, layers of black tarmac and grids of concrete slabs entombing them below. But biology knows no enemy. It does not discriminate. Whilst mankind must consider its every move, agonising over each action, biology continues unfalteringly. Simple rules resulting in complexity. A primordial pattern, unconscious and automatic, repeating the same abstraction in endless instantiations.

    Nanometre by nanometre, second by second, it creeps onward. It is relenting. Blind. It has no plan for glass and concrete. But it does not need one. Glass cracks and concrete crumbles, but verdure is immutable. Mankind will waver. Cellulose will always triumph over concrete.

  • alexanderplatz


    This is a translation of an extract from German author Annett Gröschner’s novel Walpurgistag which I did in 2015, and which was awarded first place in a translation competition organised by the DAAD (Deutscher Akademischer Austauschdienst).

    It’s the translation I enjoyed doing the most and am most happy with.


    Der Alexanderplatz ist ein Kältepol. Nur Herumlaufen wärmt. Schon zehnmal habe ich den Weg vom Brunnen bis zur Weltzeituhr zurückgelegt. Ich weiß jetzt, wie spät es in Phnom Penh ist und welche Zeit die Armbanduhren der Moskauer anzeigen.

    Mich befällt der Wunsch, in das Zeitgefüge der Welt einzugreifen. Mit großer Geste die Planeten anzuhalten oder die Uhren um einen Tag vorzustellen. Vielleicht würde ich mich daran aufwärmen können. Den ganzen Winter über habe ich nicht so gefroren wie heute Nacht. Also wieder von vorn. Der Weg ist das Ziel, der Weg ist ein Spiel. Ich achte dieses Mal streng darauf, beim Gehen nicht auf die Ritzen der Gehwegplatten zu treten. Und suche dabei nach Sätzen, die rhythmisch zu meinen Schritten passen. Lie-ber A-lex-an-der-platz, schenk mir ei-nen gu-ten Satz. Der Alexanderplatz schweigt. Ich blicke mich um und finde »Richtig leben. Ab jetzt können Sie es!« am Schaufenster der Sparkasse. Richtig leben. Ausgerechnet die müssen mir das sagen. Dieser Satz lässt sich nicht gut erlaufen. Zwischen »Leben« und »Jetzt« stockt der Schritt. Wahrscheinlich sehe ich bei diesem Satz aus wie ein Storch, der durch den Salat stakst.

    Ich probiere es mit: Mo-na-den ha-ben kei-ne Fens-ter. Ich weiß nicht, warum ich beim Wort Monade automatisch den Alexanderplatz sehe, egal, wo ich bin. Und zwar den von 1986. Blick von der Selbstbedienungsgaststätte im Sockelgeschoss des Interhotels Stadt Berlin in Richtung Alexanderhaus, noch mit den gestreiften Markisen über den Fenstern des Berliner Kaffeehauses, das schon lange nicht mehr existiert.

    Kurz vor der Weltzeituhr machen die Gehwegplatten schwarzen Basaltkatzenköpfen Platz. Der gepflasterte Kreis um die Uhr ist drei Männerschritte breit und beim besten Willen nicht mit einem Satz zu überspringen, nicht einmal mit Anlauf. Ich bräuchte jemanden, der mich durch das Basaltmeer bis zum kreisrunden Mosaikboden unter der Weltzeituhr trägt. Aber es ist kein Mensch in der Nähe, nur hinten am Eingang des Kaufhauses am anderen Ende des Platzes sitzen ein paar Punks mit ihren Hunden. Aber auch wenn sie in meiner Nähe wären, würden sie mir wohl den Vogel zeigen.


    Alexanderplatz is a centre of cold. Wandering around is the only thing that will keep you warm. I’ve covered the route from the fountain to the Weltzeituhr clock ten times already. I now know what time it is in Phnom Penh and the time displayed on the wristwatches of the citizens of Moscow.

    I am overcome with a desire to interfere with the fabric of the world’s time. Bringing the planets to a standstill with one grand gesture and setting the clocks forward by a day. Maybe that would warm me up. I haven’t felt cold like tonight all winter. Back to the beginning, then. The goal is the way, a journey to play. This time I make a concerted effort not to step on the gaps between the paving slabs. I try to come up with phrases with syllables that match my paces. Dear-est A-lex-an-der-platz, give me a phrase my footsteps match. Alexanderplatz remains silent. I look around and see ‘Live right! From now on, you can achieve anything!’ on the window of the Sparkasse bank. Live right. Trust them to be the ones to tell me that. This is not a good phrase to walk to. My paces get out of sync between ‘can’ and ‘achieve.’ I probably look like a stork wading through pond weed when I try this one.

    I try ‘mo-nads have no win-dows.’ I don’t know why, but the word monad always makes me think of Alexanderplatz. Specifically, how it was in 1986. The view from the self-service restaurant at the base of the Stadt Berlin Interhotel towards the Alexanderhaus, with the striped awnings still shielding the windows of the Berliner Kaffeehaus, which ceased to exist long ago.

    Just in front of the Weltzeituhr clock, the paving slabs make way for black basalt cobblestones. The paved circle at the base of the clock would take a man three strides to cross. You wouldn’t be able to jump over it in one go no matter how hard you tried, not even with a run-up. I’d need somebody to carry me across the sea of basalt to the circular moasic underneath the Weltzeituhr. But there’s nobody around, save for a few punks at the entrance of the shopping centre on the other side of the square, sitting with their dogs. Even if they were nearby, I’m sure they wouldn’t even give me the time of day.